picking up where i left off

In 2014 I decided to start a blog. It had been a year since I started studying fashion and I was convinced it was the next step in my career. At the time, my dad had also been fighting his battle with cancer and I thought that it was a good way to express myself. I was hoping that it could distract me from reality while simultaneously serving its purpose as a diary for my creativity. 

I wasn't quite sure where I was planning to go with it. I never had the idea of it becoming this huge thing, and I never really planned out many of the posts. It was merely an escape, or at least that is how I view it now. However, I think it makes sense that I chose to write as an means of escaping the real world. I have always loved to write. I have always felt most comfortable with expressing myself through written words. As somebody that suffers from severe anxiety and can never quite turn my brain off, speaking out loud has always been a struggle. I find myself tripping over my words, stuttering, and forgetting what I am saying. I often ramble on for minutes while others tune out, or simply become annoyed. Really, its just that my brain is working so much faster than my mouth can move. I never take silence as a moment to reflect and think, rather than an unnecessary aspect that will just make me feel uncomfortable and too self aware.

With writing though, everything stops. When I write, my words flow easier and I let myself breathe. I let myself think. I let myself focus on what is in front of me instead of the quickest way out. Believe it or not, it calms me and it grounds me. It helps with my anxiety and my mental health and my stress and my everyday worries that come with all of this.

So, I started this blog again. But this time I will actually follow through with more than just a handful of posts. My anxiety has gotten worse over the years, and my stress has reached peak levels. I have been terrified of the idea of being in my own head, but I finally want to embrace it and utilize what is going on up there. I want this blog--this website--to be my outlet for all of that. A creative outlet that will help keep me from losing my noggin as often as I do. 

I'm sure this post was not exactly what you expected to read, or even wanted to read. However, I felt it necessary to explain the conception of this blog, and why I am doing it. I am doing this because I want to, and because it will help me, and hopefully help others that may read some of my posts. 

There will be everything I love on here: fashion, beauty, life, film, photography, and more. Everything that might come to my mind in the moment. 

If you got to the end of this, thank you for reading. I hope you stick around, or even leave a comment or two on what you would like to see me talk about, or just a general one.

Thank you again for reading.

xx Liv